God's plan

 Well, now that it's been over a week since I last wrote...let me explain a little as to why. Life is consistently moving and changing and I feel constantly swept up in the tides. Last week, I found out
we aren't getting the house we put in the rental application for. After waiting and waiting for something to come up in our price range in Yukon...well there you have it. However, the minute I began to get upset I remembered my prayer:

                    "God, if we are meant to get this place and if we can truly afford it please help us get it. If it is not a good plan please help them to say no."

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So, I guess I really can't complain. Right? Since that day, I have seen a few reasons as to why getting that house may not have been a good idea right now. First, my husband and my job situations haven't been improving quite as quickly as originally planned. Second, we have been receiving the run-around from financial aid and neither of us have any for this semester so far...school started today by the way (so guess who is on a payment plan??). And Thirdly, we really needed a new computer, and let's just say that it wasn't the cheapest purchase despite the good deal that we got on it.

Well...lookee there....looks like we can't afford it! Hmmm...to think God may have known what He was doing?

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 Life has been a little hectic with getting ready for school to start and getting prepared to venture into unknown territory for me, the World of Business. For those who need a little background, might I say that I was previously a Theater Education Major. I recently left my University and Bachelor's Program and transferred back to community college (I already have an Associates of Arts Degree), to pursue an Associates of Applied Science in Business Management (nice long title right?).

So how many of you think I am crazy right now by show of hands? Well....thankfully I can't see those hands so let us just move on with the story.

My husband and I have plans to one day have a business of our own. Though this business is one that we see as a goal for the future and not one that is soon to be around the corner, is it something we really feel led by God to do, and it is something that we really want to do too (always a plus).

I have realized over the years, time and time again, though I never seem to understand it in the midst of things usually, that God has His plan. And...His plan is good, whether I always think so or not.

        " For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  -Jeremiah 29:11

       "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." - Romans 8:28

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 Even in some of my most recent experiences, I have seen God work for the good in my life. I remember thinking, when my husband and I were trying to get pregnant, that God must want me to be infertile or something and how could He do this to me? We've been trying for over a year! Doesn't He care??? But then...I did get pregnant. Not when I was living with my husband in our own apartment or in the house we had hoped to buy, but by the time we were living with my parents because we could no longer afford the home we were in. 

That did not seem like good timing to me then. And yet, it was also the time I was finally covered under the insurance under my husband's work which paid for all the medical bills at virtually 100% (which was quite the blessing with a NICU bill for a two week stay). Also, my family was around, especially my mother, who, having had 5 children of her own, was sympathetic to my pregnant self but still knew to check me on my attitude when I needed it. In addition, my mom was there to take me to the doctor numerous times and was the one who took me in for observation when my doctor thought I might be going into labor. And then when I was cleared of pre-term labor, less than a month later my mother was the one who rushed me to the hospital (Brad was at work, but we were able to call him when I confirmed I was going into labor and he hurried to the hospital) where I delivered my daughter at less than 36 weeks. She was also there to bring me food, clothing, and keep me company while I stayed in the NICU (she was there for two weeks and I was there for most of that time) with our daughter and Brad worked. She has been there since I left the hospital to support and advise me on caring for my daughter, always being helpful but not overbearing. Also, she watches my daughter frequently so Brad and I can work, go to school, and even have a date night here and there. God knew what He was doing when He put me near my mom!

We were also really blessed to have such a good staff at Mercy Hospital. I thank God so much for them.

Also, over the time of living with my parents, Brad and I have really grown together in our marriage despite many struggles and continue to be better for it. 

 In other words, we are so blessed. It is funny because even the fact that Raelyn was born early, in many ways, was better. It fell on vacation for me from school and work (her due date was initially supposed to be after the new semester had started). I was able to take extra time off for work to be with her than I initially thought I would have, and I had such an amazing teacher who really worked with me for my on campus class so that the attendance wouldn't be a large factor that semester as long as I completed the work. 

God has a plan...even when I don't understand it. And...even in other situations where I can't see the light right now and wonder if I ever will...God is still good.


                                    Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
                                                     for his compassions never fail.  
                                                                 They are new every morning;
                                                          great is your faithfulness. 
                                                           Lamentations 3:22-23

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